Anotherloverholeinyohead

I'm tired of only finding the same relationships, the same patterns, over and over again.

I'm tired of having to explain my past, my decisions, my life. No one gets it.

I'm tired of having to justify everything.

I'm tired of being assumed a liar, or something I'm not.

I'm tired of feeling like I have work so hard to prove the most basic things about me to those unwilling to listen.

I'm tired of being told I'm doing everything wrong, when all I've tried to do is right.

I'm tired of being compared to other men, intentionally or by default.

I'm tired of taking the brunt of other people's baggage.

I'm tired of starting over again.

I'm tired of feeling disappointed by those whom I've loved.

I'm tired of believing that there is someone out there for me, but not finding them.

I am so fucking tired of being alone... once again. But I'm also tired of wanting, or in fact needing to be with people who aren't interested in being with me.

Finally, I just am really damn tired of keeping all this in.

So that's my lot. I'm done with it. If anyone needs me, I'll be anywhere but in the dating scene for the next... ever. Clearly I just don't belong there.